you make me feel like things are going to start going down hill. you’re wondering why i can’t confront you yet i expect you to do the same. yet you just kinda made it clear as to why i can’t confront you. you assume that nothing’s going to get resolved and you believe that everyone should always just brush things under the table and wait for them to go away. because that’s what you do. you like to push things aside and ignore them until they disappear and that’s not okay. that’s not how this works. if we’re going to last we need to know that we can talk to each other about shit because it’s not just okay for one of us to be all pissy and upset and the other one just have their head in the fucking clouds. and this IS going to last because it needs to because i have never felt this way before and i know that you haven’t either and i don’t want you to eventually just end up brushing that aside too. i love you and i mean it when i say that you mean everything to me but i don’t feel anything mutual right now and it’s making me fucking nuts. i feel like my stomach is plummeting to my feet and i want to curl up into a wad of nothing and hate my life for a few. now i’m going to go to bed and hope to god that i get my mother fucking period asap so i can stop being such a whiney little bitch goodnight.