people who are complete shit with virtually no purpose in the world except to make it suck a tenfold more, who know they’re shit just as well as everyone else’s lives they make ungodly fucking miserable, but LITERALLY convince themselves that they benefit anyone whatsoever and actually do good in this fucking world. You think you’re intellegent and that you have so much of a fucking clue, but really you have no idea how much everyone within your proximity would give to see you set on fire. You are beyond delusional if you think that you have anyone but yourself convinced. You’ll always be the same piece of shit that everyone would rather pluck their fucking teeth out than have to subject themselves to.
We were best friends in middle school. I know, right? It’s so embarrassing. I don’t even… Whatever. So then in eighth grade I started going out with my first girlfriend Tegan who was totally gorgeous but then she moved to Vancouver, and Sara was like, weirdly jealous of her. Like, if I would blow her off to hang out with Tegan she’d be like, “Why didn’t you call me back?” and I’d be like, “Why are you so obsessed with me?” So then, for my birthday party, which was an all-girls pool party, I was like “Sara, I can’t invite you because I think you’re a lesbian.” I mean, I couldn’t have a lesbian at my party. There were gonna be girls in their bathing suits. I mean, right? She was a LESBIAN. So then her mom called my mom and started yelling at her, it was so retarded. And then she dropped out of school because no one would talk to her, and she came back in the fall for high school, she had a bowl cut and was totally weird, and now I guess she’s on tour with Paramore.
“I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!”—Kurt Cobain, taken from his suicide letter
So after a year and 6 months It’s no longer me that you want But I love you so much it hurts Never mistreated you once I poured my heart out to you Let down my guard, swear to god I’ll blow my brains in your lap Lay here and die in your arms Drop to my knees and I’m pleading I’m trying to stop you from leaving You won’t even listen, so fuck it I’m trying to stop you from breathing I put both hands on your throat I sit on top of you, squeezing Til I snap ya neck like a Popsicle stick Ain’t no possible reason, I could think of To let you walk up out this house, and let you live Tears streamed down both of my cheeks Then I let you just go and just give And before I put that gun to my temple I told you this
And I would have did anything for you To show you how much I adored you But it’s over now It’s too late to save our love Just promise me you’ll think of me Every time you look up in the sky and see a star
Shelby, You can be a real cunt sometimes and make me want to slam your head in a door, but I’d be lying if I said that I wouldn’t be lost without you baking me cakes and doing shit for me on the daily. I literally tell you every single thing there is to know about any aspect of my life and you, unlike anyone else, admire me for it. Or think I’m a weird fat whore, one of the two. It really urks me to say this, but I love you or something..so don’t like get hit by a car and die one day.
The last TEN people you spoke to on the phone: 1. Alissa 2. Amber Paige 3. Kim 4. Brendon 5. Michael 6. Thomas 7. Tayla 8. Shelby 9. Tony 10. Porsche
NINE things about you: 1. I have a short temper 2. I will argue until I’ve made my point 3. I don’t believe in many things or people 4. I have a horrible habit of burning bridges and sabotaging things for myself, and I don’t learn 5. I hate Florida and would give up anything or anyone to move back to New England 6. I get bored of things, or people, too easily 7. I can count on one hand the people in my life I fully trust and care about 8. I get extremely annoyed very easily 9. I hate everything
EIGHT ways to win your heart: 1. Don’t have excessive amounts of body hair 2. Understand my humor and know how to make me laugh in return 3. Do not cling to me, under any circumstances, unless I specifically tell you it’s okay 4. Do not attempt to communicate with me using baby talk. That shit is not cute. 5. Have an open mind about everything 6. Be a sarcastic dick a good portion of the time 7. Have the capability to hold a sophisticated conversation with me 8. Take interests in my interests
SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot: 1. My ex 2. The future 3. My ex 4. Things I need to do 5. Things I want to do 6. My ex 7. My ex
SIX things you see right now: 1. Computer screen 2. Phone 3. Cigarettes 4. iPod 5. Hair clip 6. TV FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now: 1. You really need to stop stumbling into territory you don’t belong in. Everyone else may buy into your slick young little mouth, but when the time comes and you start openly stepping on MY toes, I will go out with guns blazing. Both a promise and a threat. 2. I shouldn’t be talking to you. I’m going to end up interfering and I’m also going to fall into the same mess again. But I’m going to keep doing it anyway. 3. You’re fucking creepy, okay. I only like you when you don’t like me. 4. You’re a fucking idiot for leaving. 5. Going out of your way to tell me that you don’t care is pretty contradictory.
FOUR things you do before you fall asleep: 1. Set the TV to sleep because I’m a pansy bitch and can’t fall asleep without it on 2. Put my phone on the charger 3. Make sure my fan is on 4. Try to completely end my thought process for a good half hour before I can fall asleep
THREE songs that you listen to often: (currently) 1. Anything by Metric 2. Anything by Emily Haines 3. Awkward amounts of Eminem lol
TWO things you want to do before you die: 1. Be satisfied with my life and the person that I’m with 2. And don’t let it slip next time
ONE confession: I’m currently unsure about everything
What make up product do you never use? I really only use eyeliner and concealer, if anything. Oh and I rarely wash my face I’m kind of gross
Have you ever been offered drugs on the street? Not on the street…this isn’t Thirteen
Has anyone ever randomly licked your face? Yes. And when I hit you after you do it, that is not me being flirty and playful, that is me actually trying to hurt you for putting your saliva on my face
Was there ever a time when you felt absolutely terrified? Yeah when I thought that Wes or some other asylum escapee was trying to break into my house, but then it was just the weiner dog bumping into things in the dark
Which of your friends would you rather get arrested with? It would be somewhat of a challenge for me to actually be put in prison while my biological father is a sergeant
Were you in a relationship last year? Yeah I don’t think I’ve been single for more than four weeks in about three or four years, HELLO CHANGE<3
Was 2009 a good year for you? 2009 was an interesting year, I wouldn’t really say good
Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately? Briefly
So, the last person you kissed, why aren’t you dating them? Because I don’t want to be
Do you regret your last kiss? No
Ever have a best friend of the opposite sex? Currently, and for the last seven years
Do you follow your head more or your heart? I’m prone to following my dick 90% of the time
Do you think you’re a good person? That’s debatable
What are your plans for this Saturday? Oh yeah I’m supposed to tell Porsche that Thomas said he’d fix her car Saturday
It’s two am and your phone rings; do you answer it? I usually answer my phone as long as I’m already up
How many rings do you wear on a day-to-day basis?: Zip
When was the last time you cried? Slow your roll
You miss summer, right? Uh
How many studded belts do you own? I don’t
If you won a million dollars what would you spend it on? An apartment in downtown Boston, stat
Do you like when people call you things like “baby”, “sweetie”, “hun”, etc? No, I’m not a girl
Do you believe that love lasts forever? Everything is conditional
Is there a person that will always have a place in your heart? He’s in Palm City, I’m sure she’s in Boca, he’s in Boston, and he’s in the ground.
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment? I guess. Well, not really. Yes. Actually, no.
You can only drink one liquid for the day what would it be? Blue gatorade
What is something you disliked about your day? I groveled. I tried to sleep. I woke up.
What do you have to do tomorrow? Application
Did you mean it when you said “I love you” last, and who did you say it too? Brendon, and yes
Was your last text message from a girl or boy? Who? I don’t feel like looking my phone is under the couch again
Will your next kiss be a mistake? What’s with these kissing questions? I hate all people and all of their germs
Is there one person you CANNOT stand? Oh, there’s a list. I’m a firm believer in lists
Do you believe that saying, ‘good things come to good people”? No, not in the least
Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don’t talk to anymore? Yeah I could probably care a lot less
Do you get stressed out easily? There’s a fine line
Has anyone told you they would never leave and left? HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAZHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHZAHZZZZHAHAHAAAA fuck you
Do you miss your past? I’m sticking with the belief that I lack forward momentum
Your head looks like someone took too large of a portion of clay, gave up on sculpting it all the way, and then stuck it on a tiny teeny bopper douche bag slut body. You’re an aimlessly vindictive, devious little bitch, and just your existence in itself makes me fucking livid. I literally hope you choke on a kernel. And now that I have successfully ranted through this reoccuring unspoken distaste for you, I’m going to go make a sandwich.
Why is there not a special section on tumblr for formspring questions? Or can you at least get them all in one post so the dashboard isn’t being obnoxiously spammed by spammed q&a? Someone holla atcha boi.