Spent the day looking at places &stuff with the girlyfriend yesterday; pretty sure we’re totally hell-bent on the last one we saw. Should be signing the lease in about 3 weeks….I am so fucking stoked. I couldn’t be more grateful to have all of this happening, and knowing how close we are now. &what’s even cooler is the fact that my mom is totally behind us on this whole thing 110%, which is a far stretch from how she’s reacted to any other relationship of mine alone. &I mean not to mention how well our other mission to look at cars went yesterday as well. Everything seems to be falling into place, and I truly could not be more ecstatic.
I am so happy with the life I have with my girlfriend, truly. I’ve had people inspire me to want to be a better person, but no one that’s ever successfully led me to become one. Each day with her is just one big blessing from the God that she has me questioning my disbelief in, and each day I find myself being carved and shaped and chiseled into someone that I’m proud to say I am. I wouldn’t dare disrespect this relationship like I have so easily with past endeavors and front like I can’t live without her, but my god dude, if there is one thing I can say with absolute certainty it’s that my life is undeniably better with her in it. She saved me, &in ways that I’m not sure anyone else could have.
You take the breath from me, make my life heavenly I can’t believe the way the good Lord is blessin’ me One in a million, mother of my children Me without you like car without engine You listen to my dreams that I vision Respect that I smoke Mary Jane, it’s like my religion The pigeons sometimes make you worry But I can see, you know my vision ain’t blurry The innocence, still strong like a feminist I reminisce on the first time we ever kissed In the devilish world you my only angel Cancel concerts to stay with you and watch cable Kiss your navel, candlelights on the table You never cared if I was financially stable 12 years, to me it feels like 12 minutes My love for you sees no limits Where would I be without you? I know I wouldn’t be rappin’ into soundproof I know I wouldn’t be pushin’ a Benz I’d probably be gettin’ transferred, to different pens Or chillin’ with my dead friends Or still at the weed house makin’ 5’s and 10’s Miss Perfect, God-given When I was lost, you made my life worth livin’
They say nothing on this earth is perfect I don’t believe it, you never cheated Perfect record, undefeated I needed a miracle to save my life When I was hustlin’ and grindin’ late at night I paid the price and listened to you bitch at me You start bringing up the past, that’s history Never again will I jeopardize That’s a promise that I’ll memorize Real love never dies It’s paradise, no matter where we at The movies, the club, Six Flags, or Super Track I was a dropout, no education whatsoever But you stuck with me through all kinds of fucked up weather Hoping days’ll get better like I said they would They said “Stand by your man”, and there you stood I was 17, now I’m 29 And I pray you’ll be mine ‘til the end of time